This song was played for me recently by a friend who said he immediately thought of me when he heard it. It says it all without going into too much detail about my personal situation. I bolded the lyrics that really speak the truth.
Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri
I know I can’t take one more step towards you
cause all thats waiting is regret
cause all thats waiting is regret
don’t you know I’m not your ghost anymore
you lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time
who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don’t come back for me
who do you think you are? don’t come back for me
i hear you’re asking all around
if i am anywhere to be found
but i have grown too strong
to ever fall back in your arms
I've learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time
who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?
it took so long just to feel alright
remember how to put back the light in my eyes
i wish i had missed the first time that we kissed
cause you broke all your promises
and now you’re back
you don’t get to get me back
who do you think you are?
running around leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
so don’t come back for me
dont come back at all
cause you broke all your promises
and now you’re back, you don’t get to get me back
who do you think you are?
running around leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
so don’t come back for me
don't come back at all
who do you think you are?